guardmygirls

04:37 am: Chopped Liver
And that, dear readers, defines me at the moment.  She has a problem, I was created to help her solve them, does she bother to tell me?  No.  Why should she, maybe because I am only happy when I know she is safe, or perhaps that her emotions are a responsibity of mine?  No.  Just not making any sense at all this woman I call Host... and sometimes little one.  She seems to be slipping away from me, I respect her right to make her own decisions, but if she needs help she knows she can come to me.  

She decides not to.  Something about my getting my own life.  Well, the life I planned for myself cannot happen as there are stigma attached to what I need that she cannot help me fulfill.  I have accepted this and moved on.  

She is being taken for granted by the one person who should LEAST ignore her, and he is only serving his own needs. 

But, that is not my call.  

So I am done with my complaints, and continue on to new business.  Do not let Krysta scare you, Daniel is harmless, IF she lets him out.  

I will not reveal her reasons for not allowing that, that is not my place.

Lucien 

Tags: bluffing, underappreciated, ungrateful

04:12 am: Happy that my Girls are Happy
I am truly glad that my girls are doing so well.  I like that Holly and Bekah are enjoying watercolors, and I adore that Vixen is happy with the hair color.  Right about now I am just glad to be surrounded by my Happy ladies.

Happy by association

Lucien Stropke

Tags: happiness paid forward

11:11 pm: Guardians and their flocks
It is quite an honor to be a Guardian.  You are responsible for the well being of your flock and for being there when needed.  

The dreamers were not around when the Elses were involved in a rather serious accident.  At this point the Dreamers are still seeming like they feel responsible for what happened to the Elses.  

Being a Guardian myself, I am inclined to impart this tiny piece of wisdom to the Dreamers:

When you love someone, you have nothing but trouble.  So either you stop loving them, or you love them even more.  

and this second little gem that has almost become my mantra.  

You teach them, you guide them, you hold their hand, you stand a step behind, you duck down in the car, then you wave as theydrive away.  Through it all, you hope that the first few things made enough of an impression, that they do the right thing.  And you never let them forget that you are there.  


My heart goes out to you all... and To the ELSES:  

Find out what you need to know and take the correct action... and get to know YOUR guardian, also let me know if you need some additional help.  

 
I remain as ever watchful over mine own.

Lucien Stropke
aka Guardian

Tags: pearls of wisdom

02:14 am: Humble Pie
Let's not go into detail.  Just let me say that I got taken down a peg and got to be on the receiving end of some support from my girls.  That and some good natured ribbing about my fantastic looks.  *sighs Girls*   I guess I don't appreciate how capable they are on their own.  That and they are thoroughly understanding and forgiving, even when I am an ass.  

I fault not the person who "outed" me, they were merely being themselves.  I hold no grudge and have made my apologies.  I stand forever humbled and will think before I speak in the future.  

On a lighter note, I found that one O likes volleyball as much as I.  He also claims to suck as much as I.  We shall be well matched to laugh at one another.  There are hopes that there will soon be a match between us.  

Until that point I am searching for more pictures of myself.  

The body is no longer hormone ridden, I should be out at work again soon.

Lucien Stropke
aka Guardian

02:34 am: Introducing me to Like Personalities

Plans tomorrow are to journey the arduous distance from the workplace to the abode of a set of friends.  One of The people I have enjoyed conversing with will hopefully be around.  I look forward to speaking to him again.  

The largest issue I have at this point is the lack of Female in my vicinity.  I am not intending to have the host cheat on her man with a woman for me, but I need to see some ladies... They have a tendency to flock to me.  I miss that.  

One hopes that conversation with my bud will result in some cultured viewing of my favorite pasttime.  

Afficionado of All Things Leotard,

Lucien Stropke
aka Guardian

12:10 pm: Sitting in the balcony
Holly has agreed to let me watch up close today.  I felt this needed posted so I moved Bekah out of the way really quick.  I am to sit right next to her in the wings of the orchestra floor.  She says if I think I can handle it she may let me come out and run the show tomorrow.  I believe I can, but I understand her misgivings, the workplace has been a madhouse of late.  I agreed to sit in the wings and I agreed not to throw popcorn or other movie snacks at her when I think she is overreacting.  However, I do get to call her a nimrod at will.  LOL, That's my girl.  

I'll let Bekah back out, nothing tops that woman when she wants to bake, I don't know if she is going to today though.

Lucien Stropke
aka Guardian

12:15 pm: A visit to Host Work

Yesterday, I sat in the theatre and watched my host perform her standard tasks.  It was highly amusing to watch her become frustrated over the smallest of inconveniences.

She did not ask my opinion and I did not venture one.  The other two girls and i found her work fascinating if tedious.  She has agreed to let us observe from the theatre again today.  This should prove an interesting endeavor.  

The Orbital minds now have aim, we are now available to chat with in that venue.  

Lucien Stropke
aka Guardian  

01:29 pm: Introduction
Good afternoon.  

I am Guardian, recently Christened Lucien by one of my girls.  I am the logic and intuition of my core Host.  She comes to me for guidance and for advice.  

To answer some questions that I am sure will be asked:

It does not concern me that I am male in a female body.
I am not out because I am very content looking out for my girls.
I am not sexually interested in any of my girls, I am like their big brother, in the Host case, like her dad.
I am in negotiations with my Host to start coming out, she thinks I can handle it.
Unlike others in the Orbitalminds, I am not interested in taking over the host body.

I do not mean to seem rude, merely factual.  I split from the Host in the headspace and became a separate individual because she needed me to.  On my own I am simply the big brother everyone comes to with their problems.  

I understand selfandbetween has added me and I would like to converse with some of the system members.  While I am content to stay where I am mostly, I am fascinated by the idea of being out.  

Lucien Stropke
aka Guardian